Tumblr (3.0; @chraen)http://chraen.net/<p>So tired of being that timid little boy that gets stepped on by everyone. </p> <p>But how do I change who I am?</p>http://chraen.net/post/20407382629http://chraen.net/post/20407382629Tue, 03 Apr 2012 21:53:19 +0800<p>Had my first clubbing experience today.</p> <p>I didn&#8217;t like it at all. I feel like I drank a lot but somehow I just couldn&#8217;t get high. Or maybe dancing and going crazy is just not the way I do things when I&#8217;m drunk. Then things suddenly got really squeezy with girl&#8217;s asses everywhere. And even though those girls don&#8217;t seem to care I just don&#8217;t feel comfortable grinding some random stranger.</p> <p>Halfway through my friend drank too much and had to leave. I saw him out, then tried to get back to the dance floor. But it was so crowded. I was really lost as to what to do. I didn&#8217;t dare to just push my way through. So I just remained stuck somewhere for a while. And someone got pissed off. I just said sorry and quickly left.</p> <p>I&#8217;m not made for such places. Well it was an experience at least.</p> <p>People always laugh at me when I say that I&#8217;m afraid of groups of youngsters. But everytime I&#8217;m in some young crowded place I always get bullied. So is it really my fault I feel that way?</p> <p>I just want to avoid the world altogether. I&#8217;m happy with just the few people that I love and that&#8217;s it.</p> <p>Fuck doing cool things. I&#8217;m a nerd, and things are awesome that way.</p>http://chraen.net/post/16181136902http://chraen.net/post/16181136902Sat, 21 Jan 2012 03:24:21 +0800<p>Waiting to draw arms, but my mind is far away.</p> <p>I&#8217;m used to being on holiday this time of the year. I can almost smell the winter air, feel the cold wind against my face. The feeling of waking up earlier than the rest of the world, hunger gnawing in my stomach in anticipation of a nice breakfast at some cosy cafe. </p> <p>I want mac breakfast!!</p>http://chraen.net/post/15103346359http://chraen.net/post/15103346359Sun, 01 Jan 2012 07:33:36 +0800<p>I believe that there&#8217;s no such thing as deserved respect.</p> <p>There is no one in the entire world who deserves respect just by who he is. I don&#8217;t believe that people older than you deserve your respect just because they&#8217;ve lived longer than you have. I don&#8217;t believe that teachers deserve respect just because they&#8217;re your teachers. I don&#8217;t believe that parents deserve respect just because they brought you into the world. </p> <p>My beliefs pretty much go against every single chinese teaching there is. But you know what, fuck the chinese. I hate people who think they deserve to be respected. </p> <p>If you want to be respected, then you fucking hell better earn that respect.</p> <p>This is my belief.</p>http://chraen.net/post/14065122265http://chraen.net/post/14065122265Sun, 11 Dec 2011 22:50:02 +0800<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lvzwgshtCP1qa2f25o1_r1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a href="http://jieqi.tumblr.com/post/14018646021/darkside-of-the-moon-101112-lunar-eclipse">My photo coverage of the 101211 lunar eclipse.</a></p> <p>First lunar eclipse I’ve witnessed in my life!</p>http://chraen.net/post/14016944290http://chraen.net/post/14016944290Sun, 11 Dec 2011 00:00:00 +0800<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lvom2xtgel1qa2f25o1_r1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Isn’t this girl just so amazingly pretty?</p> <p>Watched the Victoria’s Secret Fashion Show 2011 yesterday. When I first saw the clips on facebook, I almost thought that they were the ones from the last fashion show. It seemed just a while ago that I watched the 2010 show!</p> <p>So I went to check my blog archive and I realised that I actually watched the 2010 show on the 29th of December. Almost one whole year ago. Wow, time really does fly. I wonder what I’ve done since then…?</p> <p>I feel so old to be 19 years old! I still think I’m like 16 or 17! Haha I know a friend who always laughs at me like I’m insane whenever I say that.</p> <p>I miss school. I miss studying even!</p> <p>I miss being a civilian.</p>http://chraen.net/post/13726242017http://chraen.net/post/13726242017Sun, 04 Dec 2011 21:42:00 +0800<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lvmjdilhty1qa2f25o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Finally decided that 500px was too small and expanded my blog column to 800 pixels! Whew it looks so much…free-er now. Fireworks picture to celebrate!</p> <p>Time has absolutely flown since I last posted here. I’m just about to pass out and get my three chevrons! But I’m not that excited though. It means more responsibilities. Much more. And I’m not sure I can handle it.</p> <p>Army just keeps throwing me obstacle after obstacle doesn’t it. I’ll just have to try my best!</p>http://chraen.net/post/13673906452http://chraen.net/post/13673906452Sat, 03 Dec 2011 18:48:54 +0800<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lr00ukwAiK1qa2f25o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Long break this weekend.</p> <p>This marks the start of another chapter of my army story. Soon I’ll be going to Khatib Camp to start my training as an Artillery Specialist. 6 months down, another 18 more months to go.</p> <p>I used to think that 2 years wasn’t very long. Now I wish these two years would hurry up and pass. Looking at everyone moving on with their life and going to university makes me jealous. I want to go to university too!</p> <p>But maybe in these two years I’ll be able to change myself for the better. Hopefully.</p>http://chraen.net/post/9786860564http://chraen.net/post/9786860564Sun, 04 Sep 2011 20:47:08 +0800<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lorl99d0i91qa2f25o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><blockquote> <p>We were but strangers,<br/>every single one of us.<br/>We were but strangers,<br/>placed together from the start.</p> <p>You are my brothers,<br/>we’ve been through rain and mud,<br/>And come today my friend<br/>United we all stand</p> <p>We’ve been through lightning, rain and sun<br/>Now we’re back to where we first begun<br/>Through walls of fire we once run<br/>Forget your friend, you know I can’t.</p> </blockquote> <p>Embarking on the next leg of my journey, I can’t help but miss my section mates and commanders from Cougar.</p> <p>But that’s the way life is! The next few weeks will probably be tough, but I’ll always do my best, and with that I’m sure that I’ll end up where I want to be in the end.</p> <p>Until the day my stripes turn into chevrons, lets go!</p>http://chraen.net/post/7953126766http://chraen.net/post/7953126766Sat, 23 Jul 2011 10:22:00 +0800<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lnwa9v9hxR1qa2f25o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>POP!</p> <p>I can’t decide whether to be happy or not that it’s over. It all depends on whether my new unit is good or bad I guess! I really hope it’s good.</p> <p>Over the past 4 months I feel like I’ve changed. Not a lot, but it’s a step in the right direction.</p>http://chraen.net/post/7292239018http://chraen.net/post/7292239018Wed, 06 Jul 2011 12:39:00 +0800<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lly79aaQSX1qa2f25o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>i’m obviously bored.</p> <p>and i miss taking photos so badly.</p> <p>well things have gone pretty well since my last post! i survived field camp and next week i’ll finish up all the high key events. then it’s countdown to pop!</p> <p>can’t wait.</p>http://chraen.net/post/5959107358http://chraen.net/post/5959107358Sun, 29 May 2011 16:22:23 +0800<p>2 months.</p> <p>i can&#8217;t decide whether it&#8217;s been a long time or not. at the start i told myself that 2 months more was nothing. but halfway through it felt like forever.</p> <p>and now it&#8217;s done, i wish it would continue forever.</p> <p>i&#8217;m so used to just doing exercises everyday. i don&#8217;t want to start doing the hard stuff.</p> <p>but i guess there&#8217;s no choice anyway. the 2 months ahead will be even harder. good luck to me!</p>http://chraen.net/post/5038152845http://chraen.net/post/5038152845Fri, 29 Apr 2011 19:02:01 +0800<p>okay loot post!</p> <p><img src="http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lh4ib8bsxL1qzldxw.jpg"/><img src="http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lh4in33juT1qzldxw.jpg"/></p> <p>first! canvas overnighter from witchery. i&#8217;ve been wanting to buy a bag like this so i can bring to army. super glad i found a nice one!</p> <p><img src="http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lh4izrccRc1qzldxw.jpg"/></p> <p>superdry thongs! i like them cause they&#8217;re lighter than my havaianas. and they&#8217;re not as expensive so i don&#8217;t have to worry about soiling them!</p> <p><img src="http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lh4j74LkBw1qzldxw.jpg"/></p> <p>and a replica sloop from a shop in queen victoria market. only cost 20AUD! which is quite cheap. i think. anyway it fits in so well with my sailor bear which my girlfriend gave me!</p> <p>yep and that&#8217;s all. not much to buy in australia but super happy because of the bag!</p>http://chraen.net/post/3482777986http://chraen.net/post/3482777986Thu, 24 Feb 2011 21:42:00 +0800<p><img src="http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lgykz6VURb1qzldxw.jpg"/></p> <p>i&#8217;m back.</p> <p>spent a week in melbourne driving around, making trips to the supermarket, eating awesome food, sleeping and watching tv.</p> <p>got a bit boring sometimes but it was okay.</p> <p><img src="http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lgyl5rXYee1qzldxw.jpg"/></p> <p>helped my sis to move in to her new apartment and settle all the stuff. she&#8217;s a university student now! so lucky. i&#8217;m a year older and still have two more to go before i can enter the u!</p> <p><img src="http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lgyl9ayCL21qzldxw.jpg"/></p> <p>i wish i had gone to australia to study too. could have gotten into the university of melbourne. now i&#8217;m stuck here worrying about a level results! everyone&#8217;s saying the results will be out on the 4th of march. one day before i enlist! that sucks donkey ass.</p> <p><img src="http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lgylf405zd1qzldxw.jpg"/></p> <p>well it wasn&#8217;t all running errands. we managed to find time to do some shopping and buy some stuff! i&#8217;ll cover the loot in a separate post because i haven&#8217;t taken pictures yet!</p> <p><img src="http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lgylhwrokh1qzldxw.jpg"/></p> <p>now that i&#8217;m back i figure i&#8217;ve gotta grow up. my mother&#8217;s not going to be around to take care of me anymore. i guess it&#8217;s about damn time huh?</p> <p>that thought came to me as i was on the flight back watching legend of the guardians. awesome movie which i missed no thanks to a levels.</p> <p><img src="http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lgylj7kwKk1qzldxw.jpg"/></p> <p>two weeks to grow up. because i have two years of hardship ahead.</p> <p>to be honest i&#8217;m actually looking forward to ns. it&#8217;ll make me into a better person.</p> <p>i hope.</p>http://chraen.net/post/3421146764http://chraen.net/post/3421146764Mon, 21 Feb 2011 16:49:39 +0800<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lgi05xpjC31qa2f25o1_400.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>i think my mac is pretty.</p> <p>haha okay, i’m bored. supposed to be packing for australia right now but i’m just so lazy. so many things to do, but i’m not doing them! meddling with my camera instead.</p> <p>i want new lenses. hahaha. but they all cost in the thousands. why!</p> <p>need to rob a bank or something.</p>http://chraen.net/post/3249262343http://chraen.net/post/3249262343Sat, 12 Feb 2011 17:39:33 +0800<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lg4qtfQa3T1qa2f25o1_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lg4qtfQa3T1qa2f25o2_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lg4qtfQa3T1qa2f25o3_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lg4qtfQa3T1qa2f25o4_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lg4qtfQa3T1qa2f25o5_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lg4qtfQa3T1qa2f25o6_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lg4qtfQa3T1qa2f25o7_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lg4qtfQa3T1qa2f25o8_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lg4qtfQa3T1qa2f25o9_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lg4qtfQa3T1qa2f25o10_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><p>classy ho.</p>http://chraen.net/post/3118549278http://chraen.net/post/3118549278Sat, 05 Feb 2011 13:48:50 +0800“it’s not how high he flies, but the song he sings”http://chraen.net/post/3069111429http://chraen.net/post/3069111429Thu, 03 Feb 2011 00:52:46 +0800<p>1155.</p> <p>eating chocolate midnight cookies ice cream, listening to music and lurking the internet.</p> <p>i&#8217;m tired! can&#8217;t help but feel like my enlistment date is so close. uh oh. going to be bald. i&#8217;m training to get fitter but somehow it just can&#8217;t seem to go fast enough.</p> <p>oh well gotta just keep trying i guess.</p> <p>anyway, cny soon! hope i get lotta money because i want to buy so many things. new wallet new shoes new bag new clothes! but army is seriously screwing everything up i can&#8217;t buy anything without feeling like it&#8217;s going to waste because i&#8217;ll only be able to use them on weekends.</p> <p>argh. haha.</p> <p>oh well. i&#8217;ll make sure to save up my army allowance so i can buy everything i want!</p>http://chraen.net/post/3031690504http://chraen.net/post/3031690504Tue, 01 Feb 2011 00:00:36 +0800<p>i finally made a <a title="flickr" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/chraen/">flickr</a>.</p> <p>have a look :D</p>http://chraen.net/post/2975891247http://chraen.net/post/2975891247Fri, 28 Jan 2011 22:55:00 +0800<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lfn1gju9is1qa2f25o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>meisa is so freaking gorgeous.</p> <p>photo from her first photobook ‘LOVE MEISA’. it’s cheeky, inappropriate and damn, incredibly hot.</p> <p>the photographer is Leslie Kee who is from Singapore! he went to get a bachelor in photography from tokyo! whoa, he’s my idol just because of that.</p> <p>i wanna be a photographer.</p>http://chraen.net/post/2941640799http://chraen.net/post/2941640799Thu, 27 Jan 2011 00:21:55 +0800