Had my first clubbing experience today.

I didn’t like it at all. I feel like I drank a lot but somehow I just couldn’t get high. Or maybe dancing and going crazy is just not the way I do things when I’m drunk. Then things suddenly got really squeezy with girl’s asses everywhere. And even though those girls don’t seem to care I just don’t feel comfortable grinding some random stranger.

Halfway through my friend drank too much and had to leave. I saw him out, then tried to get back to the dance floor. But it was so crowded. I was really lost as to what to do. I didn’t dare to just push my way through. So I just remained stuck somewhere for a while. And someone got pissed off. I just said sorry and quickly left.

I’m not made for such places. Well it was an experience at least.

People always laugh at me when I say that I’m afraid of groups of youngsters. But everytime I’m in some young crowded place I always get bullied. So is it really my fault I feel that way?

I just want to avoid the world altogether. I’m happy with just the few people that I love and that’s it.

Fuck doing cool things. I’m a nerd, and things are awesome that way.